I am a seventy-three year old man attempting to document his life by writing a memoir. Instead of using MS  Word, Google Docs or similar methods, I decided to create a blog.

I am not famous or even interesting, but I hope that some of the essays I write here might be:
A) Useful to others
B) Interesting
C) Humorous
D) Insightful

I say “essays” as that is the format I will use. This won’t be a direct day by day autobiography, but essays written about certain major time periods in my life.

I have suffered with low level depression since birth, anxiety attacks, full blown depressions, generalize fear, self-esteem issues, speech disorder and a host of similar irritants.  People who walk about the world just under what is considered a normal mood, that is, mildly depressed, are sometimes called Walking Blue. The are somewhat depressed every day but still about to function in life. They can hold jobs, relationships, and progress life with a permanent case of the Blues.

So, my life has not been bad. At least, not all bad. I learned to deal with my irritants and still move forward in life. I have had some ups and some deep downs. Divorce, death, bankruptcy, long periods of unemployment and one suicide attempt.

But I am still here.

I had a successful career as a bank branch manager, as a full-time real estate agent, as an Assistant Dean and Director of Financial Aid at a university, and my favorite job, teaching college freshmen as adjunct faculty.

I have earned a Bachelors degree and later a Masters degree with honors.

I have written two books and about fifty short  stories.

Depression, anxiety and regrets still haunt me weekly.

I am a believer in Jesus Christ, and mostly because of that…..

I am still here.
I’m walking Blue.

 

Chapters will appear in the right sidebar.